-12/5/2026
Im at a very medium point. I finally bought a second base-station for my VR setup so I'll have full tracking again- downside is that between now and the last time i used it, something in my VR fixes broke, so I gotta do a bunch of troubleshooting again. I'm hoping to get that fixed within the month though it really depends on if I can get my priorities straight.
I started a new modded minecraft server this weekend, as my friends are ending their college year so they have a lot more time to do other things. The whole pack is based around Create: Aeronautics. Eventually I'll take some screenshots of the first contraption (a boat) we made and put them in the gallery. We started off with just a simple raft which was eventually built into a larger brig. The two biggest things I have learned from it are these: (A). Water is almost massless and very buoyant (B) make sure the underside of the ship is made of a heavy material or balancing will be a constant nightmare. I have also been picking up programming again so thats been fun. Mainly been messing around in Replicube and doing the puzzles there, though I'm hoping to make a file broswer app for the Computercraft MC mod. The VOTV crossover in Abiotic factor was pretty cool, but overall underwhelming. I leanred later that the whole thing was done in two weeks though so depsite it all i still think its super cool that it happened (plus we got a bit of lore from it too). I didnt start a new save, as the location was in the last third of the game so it would have taken a while, and we were just about to start the modded MC server.
I have started therapy as of two weeks ago and it has been good to meet again. I have recently realized that my ADHD meds arent working quite as well as I would like them to, but also I cant up the doseage, as I have some minor kidney issues. Also I learned that biking was the cause of my major knee pain last summer so I gotta see the doc about that :/ . Also I'm hoping ot get a new car soon as my money is up to a point im happy with and my current vehicle is getting progressively worse.
As of posting this im at 2994 views on neocities, so after I post this I'll probably be at 3k, thanks for all the views folks! -4/5/2026
Hey all. Things have definetly gotten better since my last post. Got back to talking with God (for the most part) and definetly on better terms now with my faith, which has helped a lot with mental health and general outlook. Talked with an old buddy of mine and he helped me a lot with pointing me in the right direction. I also started back on therapy with my old therapist so thats good too. This past weekend was honestly really nice and relaxing. Spent some time working on a new modpack to play with my friends once college is out. Also got invited to the closed early access of Astroneer Starseeker, had a load of fun with that (I have 12 hours on that game now). Most exciting bit is that today Abiotic Factor is getting an update that has a crossover with Voices Of The Void. While there has been a refference to it ingame for a while now, we are now getting he voices of the void map as an ingame location now so im super pumped to see it when I get out of work, gonna start a new save with one of my friends. I also started a new project at work so the repetition is mostly broken now. I think thats all I got. -16/4/2026
And here I was last post thinking it couldnt get worse. Took all of last week off. Monday morning I was going into work and was feeling great, ready to work, get stuff done, pumped. Three hours into the day I'm crippled by anxiety and decided to take off early. Im not one to skip work usually, because I care about my coworkers and how my decisions effect them. I knew that taking time off (especially so suddenly) could be problematic so I had to think it over for a solid half hour before deciding to put in an absence form for the rest of the week (Im lucky that im allowed to do that without having to wait for confirmation (Though spur of the moment stuff like what happened in this case does give me a strike)). Turns out I ended up scheduling it perfectly as both my sisters were coming to visit that week/weekend so I was able to really relax and just hang out wiht my family. This week has been FAR better than the past two, and ive been through the whole week with only minor issues (and those issues were at home not work so thats something)(hopefully not speaking too soon.)
I recently restarted my mincraft server with my buddies. Right now we are running a custom pack based around Cobblemon and Create, and I have been having a lot more fun with it than I was expecting. The vanilla server is still up right now but because of the recent update screwing with bedrock edition versions, I cant get Geyser set up at all until it stabilises to let others join the server, so its Java only for now. I have been watching a decent bit of 3d printing videos lately and realised its been a month or two since my last print so :P
Speaking of that, one of my buddies is currently finishing up a print of the B01-Tactical helmet from Helldivers 2, so its pretty cool seeing that come together. He has a Bambulab A1, and I have a Creality CR10-V2, so his is a lot easier to use than mine. I might have some ideas for how to make the setup of my printer a little nicer. For instance bed leveling is a fully manual process right now and is very dependant on feel, but im thinking I could maybe use a copper sheet and and a Z offset combined with a battery and an LED for a more consistant bed leveling process, though im not sure how to get around the issue of the copper sheet getting scratched up by the extruder.

-6/4/2026
Well i had a bit of a vacation. My family went out and so I was home alone for half a week, was nice having silence a house to myself. Started watching JJBA Stone Ocean, but only got two episodes in. I still havent done any soldering or coding (aside from this here). Gosh im just so exhausted. Its only two hours into the day and im already drowsy. Its like highway hypnosis, just doing the same thing seeing the same stuff for so long that your brain stops feeling the need to stay awake.
I have done a number of things between now and last post. Im gonna start with the good stuff then move to the rough stuff.
I recently installed DOSbox onto my PC and started to play The Secret of Monkey Island (a very fun and silly game (dont drink the grog)). I also got a laptop, the Framework 12, so now I have a better "tablet" to do my art on instead of my old ipad, so I set it up with Tiny11 and eventually will add a dual boot to Ubuntu, but for now just sticking to windows. With the laptop I'll be able to get out of the house and do my own thing instead of sitting in the basement all evening. The full release of Voices of the Void update 9 came out last week so I have been having a lot of fun playing that. My buddies and I have been looking at minecraft mods lately and might be starting up a cobblemon/palworld minecraft server just for fun. Last sunday I was able to talk with an old friend and played some games with him last friday.
And now for the rough bits. Last week was absolute shit. I had a dream about work Sunday night, then went to work (basically two work days at that point.) Then monday night I had two consecutive dreams about work, I requested the day off on monday so I just stayed home that day and chilled. Wednesday was the worst of all. No dreams, but on my way to work I had an anxiety attack and ended up having to park in the nearest lot and started running because I just genuinely felt scared (though there was no object that I was scared of it was just fight or flight activated by stress/anxiety). Had to take the day off and relax at home. That was the second time ever I have had a full on fight flight freeze response in my life (first time was related to my past with cancer).(ugh I am losing my mind rn) Anyways yeah thats all that comes to mind.
Hopefully you guys had a better past couple of weeks than I did. Love and prayers.

-19/3/2026
I need a vacation. I haven probably needed one for a while now to be honest, but after three long weeks in a row I have finally figured out that im overworked. So that means I need to get my passport, which is kind of nice because thats been on my list for a while now.
Anyways im tired, gonna finish the day at work and chill or smth (or try to at least), also might try to do some soldering, though we'll see how I feel.

-6/3/2026
UUuggghhhhh, this week has been so long for me. It hasnt been busy per-se, but my internal time has been off by a day since Tuesday, Yesterday felt like Friday, Wednesday felt like Thursday, it has sucked. I was gonna go to the gym this week, but I had an appointment after work on Tuesday, and forgot my gym shoes on Thursday (those are the days I plan to go regularly). I was also going to start a soldering project (just a little kit I bought off microcenter), but unfortunately the kit lacked solder, so im going to buy some this weekend.
Work has been pretty busy for me this week, nonstop stuff, no times where there was none to be done (except today). Been playing a lot of minecraft lately. Been working on building a really big map-art in the End, taking up three maps wide, might put a pic on the artpage when it's done, we'll see. A remastered version of Poker Night At The Inventory came out this week, including all the TF2 items from the original, which is super cool. I grabbed it myself, as I knew I would enjoy it, (I pirated the first one last year because I wanted to try it out.)
I need to move out soon, my current situation is starting to effect my health. Last night I was going to get second helpings of dinner, but it was so noisy and chaotic that I could'nt get myself to do so. Every night before bed I have been needing to grab an extra bite to eat before bed because my stomach is growling. It's a mess. Its not even an issue of a lack of food, the anxiety is just removing my appetite despite my hunger. I could technically just take some food and eat it in my room, but often I need to help my mom contol my little siblings, so it feels like it would be unfair, plus dinner is like the only time I spend with my family right now, as the rest of my time is either early in the morning getting ready for work before anyone wakes up, at work, or winding down in my room on my computer after work. I just got a raise at my work so I should probably start getting around to finding an appartment/home for myself. To be honest im pretty scared to take that step for myself, moving away from my parents (not far though). But to be honest its for my own good. I feel guilty leaving my parents alone to take care of my siblings because its not infrequent that I have to step in to help hold or calm down angry siblings. I know its not my responsibility, but at the same time it is because its my family. I feel dirty just thinking about it. Frickin sucks.

-20/2/2026
New week, new stuff I guess. Things have generally been pretty quiet for me lately. Got my car back from the shop, and its much quieter to drive now, that being said though, I am still running into some issues with it. I dont know if its just becuase it cold or what, but my car sometimes will fail to start the engine, and I dont really know why (thinking about it, its likely becuase I always forget to let it warm up in the morning). I ran to the store yesterday to get some cereal and snack (grabbed some lemon oreos) and DANG, it is so hard to find good cereal. Everything I looked at was either basically 0 fiber, or like 6% or more of daily sodium. The only cereals I found (that are appetizing) were Frosted Mini Wheats and Oatmeal Squares, I grabbed a family size box of Oatmeal squares becuase they had a slightly higher ammount of fiber. I also ran to the library earlier this week and got some books and and a CD, (which I promptly brought home and saved to my pc). I got a book on local geology and also book one of JJBA Steel Ball Run, which im planning to return and get the second book today after work. I should probably try to go there regularly and start putting books on hold. My local library is actually pretty small, but is part of a large system so theres actually a large number of books available to me, its just harder for me to browse online compared to in person.
Last night I was up until like 11:30 doing taxes, which I gotta say, some of this stuff feels like its obfuscated on purpose (I know it is, theres companies lobbying for it to stay that way). Lately I have been playing a lot of No Man's Sky, incentivized by the latest update. I have a really cool base in progress for the scrapyard, but im waiting to share it with ya'll until its done (I will post the coordinates as well). I have also been working towards getting a living ship, but I havent collected all the rune for the portals yet so im grabbing all those first, I think I have like 10 of them so far. Something else I have been doing is I reently set up an in-between server for my friends on minecraft. Normally we play modpacks together but with college being busy lately all of them have been pretty busy, so right now i just have it as a vanilla server, though I actually added Geyser to the server so some of my bedrock friends can join too.

-4/2/2026
Been a bit I guess, both very little and very much has happened. As an update to the last post I have my PC all up and running now, with files mostly where they need to be. I have also gotten my VR working now and im looking forward to being able to play games and stuff on it. The city has not fallen yet and politics are still up in the air kinda, so I'm just kinda existing right now, might go to a protest on Friday but we'll see. Glue3D released on scratch since last post and I already ported Peach's Castle into it (its slow but functional.) My car is in the shop rn but I found out it likely needs a new high voltage battery which is like 14000 dollars, twice what I paid for the car. So now I gotta sell off the car and buy a new one. I know a few places I can get a pretty solid Toyota Prius for a good price so I'm probably going to go with that. Feeling a little under the weather with a minor sore throat and clogged/runny nose so hopefully that goes away soon. I havent really touched Hytale in a while, been playing the new 1.4.5 terraria update wiht my buddies, next boss in line is plantera. Work has been kinda slow lately so thats just :| . Like its nice to slow down a bit but also that means just sitting around at work a lot of the time which sucks over longer periods. Pastor at my church mentioned how important daily bible reading is, including some actualy data about how it can help (anxiety, addiction, etc etc) so I have been trying to be better about that. Usually I do my bible reading before bed but the past month or so I have been just sleeping instead, so im trying to get back into the habit. I was able to talk to someone the other day about all the stuff going on in politics lately with them just being an ear to listen and reciprocate feelings, and it was really nice to be able to just vent to a third party instead of dealing with not wanting to worry anyone already worried about the current state of things. Lately I have felt convicted about my lack of input to the situation, just acting as a bearer of news instead of someone working to make change happen, so thats why im hoping to go to one of the protests soon, so I can be more involved. It feels like theres more I could be doing I just don't know what. I would consider myself decently well off for my age and schooling, and im white, so I have a lot more priveleage than I would care to admit. That being said though, I have decided that instead of moving away to another country until this all blows over, I'm going to do my best to stick it out and be a voice for people less privileged than I. I know that I have the ability to change where I live and work pretty easily, as my current job has locations across the world, but I also know that this isnt a problem you can fix from the outside, gotta stick around to make change happen.
I want to get back outdoors more but its just so cold out right now that its not really a realistic goal. I also need to make a run to the library to get a card (I lost mine) and get some books to read during my free time at work. I also signed up for the gym at my workplace so I can get some muscle development and burn calories after work, but I honestly have yet to actually go in and do it, partially because I havent brought my tennishoes in so I dont have proper footwear.

-20/1/2026
Geez what a weekend. I think I'll start with the bad news and work up from there so I can at least leave you all on a high note.
To start with, my home state is now under martial law, which essentially means that the federal government is in charge through the power of the military, and it puts the state/local government out of operation/power. While for me personally it doesnt mean a lot changes (yet), I know MANY people who are effected by this, including a number of my co-workers and some of my family members. I learned from a video posted by someone with a position in the state government that ICE raids are actually a lot more racially motivated than I was hoping. I knew from the start that it wasnt entirely legaly motivated, but its worse than I was hoping it would be. Essentially ICE doesnt even look for specific people or addresses, they just sit and racially profile people and wait for people that they could "legaly" detain/deport which REALLY sucks.
Alright on to some less depressing news; I got a new VR headset! Unfortunately I cant use it yet. I run linux mint on my PC and vr isnt built for linux (yet) so I have to make some modifications and stuff. The biggest step for it all is patching a custom kernel to get it all working properly. I have already tried once to get it working properly and half did, but not quite useable. Essentially SteamVR was able to detect the headset, but nothing would ever display on the screens. I have been running out of space on my root drive for a while now as I only had a 500 GB SSD so I bought a 1 TB M2 card for better performance, and so now im starting from scratch. Essentially the hope is that without all the extra steps and software that I took on my previous install I can get it working easier and have less external things effecting it. The only downside is that all my games and other files are sitting on other drives that are disconnected for now for simplicity's sake, so right now im forced to actually work on it until I can get VR working, then I'll re-mount my other drives and have all my stuff back.
On a seperate note I finally brought my car into the shop for repairs because it was being odd (noises on deceleration and unable to take a charge (I drive hybrid EV)). When they did an initial scan on it they got 12 error codes back :'(. On the bright side though I know 5 of them (if not more) aren't actually of any concern, as one was for driver window calibration (the window still works fine and can roll down) and four others were just for low battery in the tire pressure sensors (minor inconvenience). The official look at it will be today in the afternoon so hopefully I can get a quite on repair costs by the end of the day.
On a VERY happy note; HYTALE! Hytale is out now! Early Access! It has been so fun playing it and learning the new systems, build styles, and all the other fun stuff. Been playing on a server with some friends and it has been so much fun.
Aside from that I think thats all I have for this miniblog post, so I hope you all stay safe and have a good one! Until next time! ;)

-16/1/2026
It has been a while! Not only that, but it's a new year now! Happy 2026!
Now obviously not much has really changed since last year, but despite all the worry in politics and such I find it important to keep a positive outlook on the future. I know its hard and painful and everything sucks, but if we stay focused on the negatives then nothing will change, but if we even just have hope for better, it can still make a change. Many studies have proven that faking an emotion does actually sway chemical activity in the brain towards that emotion, and while that doesnt directly apply, I think the same can be said of actions. If we even just have a positive outlook, it will influence our actions and and ideas to make small changes for the better. Obviously its not all sunshine and rainbows, heck even just trying to image a better outcome is difficult, but hoping for the abstract idea of better instead of a specific outcome can help a lot. Anyways it was a rough end of the year for me and some of my friends too. Lots of temptation and anxiety, honestly just kinda felt dead y'know? I'm doing better now but I hope whoever may be reading this had a better December. Lately I have been playing a lot of Hytale and I must admit it is growing on me. I wouldn't say its a Minecraft killer, but it is DEFINETLY some much needed pressure on Minecraft to improve. Not only that but it also adds some professional level competition and a new and cleaner playground for modders and builders alike.
Aside from all that, I recently received a brand new VR headset in the mail this week!back in october/november or something I ordered myself a Bigscreen Beyond 2e and it finally made it's way here. I do actually have past experience with vr, specifically I used to own a Vive Cosmos Elite, but when I moved from windows to linux I was no longer able to ue it :(
While the BB2e is technically linux compatible, theres a number of steps to take to get it actually functional. The scariest of which being that I need to patch a modification into my kernel (which is what the operating system is built on). Im not so much worried about the outcome so much as the process. It feels very daunting. But yeah this weekend I'll be diving into that, wish me luck! Have a good one everyone and merry new year!